I promised myself I wouldn’t tell you this shit but tomorrow’s uncertainty promotes the urgency in this…
What happened to you?? You use to care, well at least you pretended lik you did. You told me u loved me & I ran with it. You had ambition when I first me you. You had goals u wanted to go Tennessee after u graduated. You were doin well in school. You took care of yourself. && now I feel lik you let yourself go. When it should be the other way around.
I think about you daily. I have love you
I love you and always will simply because I was in love with you. How ever I will never understand how I have continued to stick it out with u. U have hurt me time & time again.
I remember everything tht means something to me. I remember the first time u told me I was safe with u. I remember the first time we kissed. I remember the first date we never had. I remember all the times u have stood me up & lied to me. The time u tried to tlk to my friend. The times u made me cry. I remember it all!
It’s like I’ve been waiting for something, the inevitable! Hopeing, wanting, wishing for you to come to ur sense and want to work on us. I never gave up on the thought of us. It’s hard to pretend to the world like you don’t exist anymore but truth is u do. I think about you daily! Literally daily. I pray for you and ur well being. the thought tht maybe just one day me and you will be back together. But today the reality has come crashing down! Reading your words is a realization tht I will never amount to what you had with her, but only if you knew how no one could amount to you in my world! It hurts. really really hurts to kno ill never amount to anything. I’m loosing my mind here!